An Eye Opening Experience

In the last two weeks I have been put through the spiritual ringer. Or at least it feels that way. I have been reading a friend's 'infertility blog' and it has broken my heart and opened my eyes. It has opened my eyes to more that just the plight of women who battle infertility but also to the very knowledge (or reminder of the knowledge) that ALL children are a blessing from God. I am ashamed of my own behavior and other people's behavior. I'd like to go back in time and slap myself for every time I said anything negative about someone else's child or even my own.

I certainly cherish Hannah even more after reading that blog, but that's not to say I didn't cherish her before-I did. But I think its easier to cherish her even more now. Easier to be grateful for her no matter what current irritating circumstance is happening. There's now a little reminder in the back of my mind that at least I'm getting to have this experience even if I'm sleep deprived, have a massive headache, and the baby won't quit crying. I remind myself constantly to enjoy her while I have her. There's no guarantee that I will have her with me tomorrow or even an hour from now. And each day is special because she changes each day and each week and each month. It's incredible the differences from the day she was born to now, seven months later.